WLS update

I  have been posting on my Cozi blog which isn't public. I'm going to copy and paste them over here so there are gonna be lots of posts at once from out of nowhere.

I looked over my older posts too and I've been posting here since 2009. Wow that's a long time for me to keep up with something. So there is something to say for journaling.

I noticed that almost all of my picture posts have disappeared. The link to the pictures server that I used is obviously gone. Too bad that I'm not sure what pictures those were so I'll just have to remove the posts altogether.

Went to Dr. Beitzel today, it was my last visit of my 3 month weight loss visits. I've managed to remain the same weight for 3 months. That's good for me, I didn't gain and I was gaining like crazy. So I have the papers from my visits but not a medical necessity letter which I told him I needed. I'm confused, maybe he is sending it in. I thought we had our shit together and the nurse handing me the papers and said they all looked good and that she hoped I got approved. So I didn't look at them until we had already left.

I'm going to fax all my info to Dr. Sloan tomorrow hopefully... I'm waiting for a copy of my blood tests results. I thought they were on my online medical records website but nothing is there so I sent them an email. Maybe I should also be asking about that letter. My psychiatrist wrote a letter of medical necessity a few months back so hopefully that will work if all else fails. It's getting to be a little more real. blah blah blah...more on that later.

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CHER

It's getting kinda late

It's getting kinda late, 12:40 but wanted to make a quick jot. I've gotten some relaxation tonight after having Lala for 5 days and Micah and Rylie for the weekend. Loved every minute of them but to go from basically doing nothing to taking care of toddlers is quite a feat. That would be one of my main reasons for wanting to get myself healthier and choosing WLS surgery for that. 

It seems that the time frame to get all of my insurance information together is coming to a wrap up. Tomorrow is my last visit with Dr. Beitzel for my 3 month doctor supervised weight loss program which I should say hasn't gone well. After that visit all I need to do is finish up the intensive paperwork on the surgeons website and fax all my other doctor's information of all my visits. If there's one thing I have it's a paper trail of doctors.

My mom and Jayme came out for a fish fry tonight, it also saved me a trip taking the kids home. That was awesome because I have a lot of driving to do next week and we've been trying to save on gas money to put it into the house. Little by little it's getting done. We've been doing remodeling for a year now. I know because I was reading some of my older blog posts and there was the first posting in March of last year about the things that we had purchased and what Bill had already done. It's hard to imagine that it's been a year because it did go fast but when I think of all he's accomplished it adds up. 

Tonight was the first time that mom and Jayme got to see the house in the shape that it's in right now...the new upper bathroom and closet. The new closet office which I love. Many things in the kitchen were new to Jayme and she really likes everything especially the master suite. 

I'm excited about having my final doctor appointment tomorrow but now am getting a bit nervous, not much but just a little

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CHER

Weight Loss Surgery

So far I've only done a few video blogs but I'm gonna start doing more since I've been planning for weight loss surgery. I've been stalking several of the weight loss vloggers and it looks like it would be an awesome tool for me to use to keep up my accountability. They have ALL been successful. I've got several ideas to keep my accountability in check and to replace my bad eating habits. I've written it all out on paper but will post it here before I go in for surgery cause I know I'll lose the paper eventually. The insurance company requires certain things for me to do before I have surgery and Dr. Sloan also requires certain things for me to do. The doctor wants me to go to a seminar, get my annual pap and mammogram, do his optifast diet for 5-7 weeks. That's to shrink the liver so it doesn't get nicked during laproscopic surgery. I went to the seminar last month and also got pap and mammogram last week. I can't do his optifast until I get insurance approval. The insurance really just wants a letter of necessity from my family doc and to show that I've done 3 months of a doctor approved diet plan. I went to my first doctor visit on Nov 14th and my next is in a few weeks. I should have that completed by the end of February 2014. Then I will wait to see about my insurance approval then I'll be able to start the optifast diet that Dr. Sloan requires. Dr. Beitzel knows exactly what we have to do for the insurance company so I'm optimistic that I will be able to have my surgery by my next birthday. I know it seems far away but it's gonna give me time to work on my bad eating habits and save money for the optifast diet which is $400 and any co-pays I will have to pay. I'm just truely blessed that I'm going to have the opportunity to have this surgery. It was a difficult decision for me because I was the one who looked at people as failures for having weight loss surgery. I've had to face my previous poor judgements of others before in my life and this is another one of those times. It shows me once again that I shouldn't judge people. I'm not doing that anymore or I stop myself when I think I'm going to. When I tested in for fatty liver on top of all the other health issues that I have I knew I had to do something. The liver can heal itself but if it gets beat up too much it will turn into cirrhosis. That isn't the road that I'm looking to go down. Nothing can be done about that except a transplant and that's after dialysis and if I'm even a candidate with all of my other health issues. I wouldn't want to take a liver from someone else who needed it that had actually taken care of themselves. To make matters worse every time I diet I gain more weight back than I lost. My doctor had some term for this but basically said I was at a place where it was kind of a vicious circle since I'm unable to exercise because of the pain in my back and joints because of the weight. Anyway it's the best excuse that I can come up with. But really I want my quality of life back and would like to repair the damage that has been done....sleep apnea, high cholesterol, high blood pressure, depression, back pain, shortness of breath, metabolic syndrome and I'm getting an ultra sound in a few weeks to see if I test positive for poly cystic ovary syndrome. I might be forgetting something but I know that I'll be able to stop taking a lot of medicine and I'm looking forward to that.

~~Show Faith, Always Dream, Share With Everyone, Hope hope HOPE and Love Ridiculously & Unselfishly and Be the Person you Dream and Hope to be remembered for~~

CHER