May 17, 2012

 It was so beautiful out today.  69 but sunny with no wind. I could live like this everyday.  It's going to be in the mid eighties tomorrow and the next day.  I think I might sneak down to the beach and stick my toes in the water.
We picked up Rylie today for "my week-end".  Bill just carried him up to bed, he's been sleeping on the couch since we got home 2 hours ago.  I hope he doesn't get up too early tomorrow, at least not before us especially since we had to return the dead-bolts because I got the wrong kind. We need the kind that takes keys for both sides. So now there are empty holes in the doors with tissue stuck in it. How hillbilly is that lol. I just don't want him to go outside without me. I guess I'll be shopping for those dead-bolts tomorrow.
Me and Bill went to see his mom today.  They took her back to the nursing home last night and her urinary tract infection is pretty muc gone.  Her face is a little swolen but not near as bad as it was in the hospital and she kinda looks good that way.
We played a few games of yahtzee.  Then Mary came to make sure they changed her back to real food instead of that thickener stuff that she wouldn't eat.  I wouldn't want to eat it either.  I mean if you know you're gonna go you should be able to enjoy the time you have left. And food is a big part of that.  We stopped and got her a chocolate shake at Stake N Shake. She was loving that. A little bit before we left Suzie and her son showed up.  I was glad to see Bills mom in her wheelchair and sitting in the break room.  She could talk well but still can't hear and Mary doesn't think the hearing aid is necessary now. I hope Bill goes to see her more often.  Oh ya, they started her on morphine today and took her off of her psyc meds.  She's on the lowest doese of morphine and I think she was pretty alert for being on it, I was a bit worried about that.

I can't remember if I posted since Mother's Day or not. But, me, Bill, mom, Jayme, the kids and Derick all went out to the Old Country Buffet or something like that. For some reason I don't think that's the one, but the other one just like it. Ugh, I hate my memory.  Wade was able to call me on Mother's Day.  He is starting to get ansy and we figured he is coming up on a year now.  Actually I think it's been a year now.  It seems longer and will really seem long by the time he gets out.  He's going to a 16 wk counseling type of course and I think it's helping him.  He also gets a time cut from it. I hope he gets lots out of it cause he needs to do things totally different when he gets out and that's really hard to do.  I think he will remember who has been there for him and who hasn't. He has lots of time to think while he's in there and all his "so called family and friends" can't seem to break down and write a ten minute letter.  It's not even that so much that I worry about, it's who he hangs around.  I don't want him breaking his parole and ending up spending the rest of his sentence in there.

What a bummer post. Good things are happening too.  I've started my new website www.sharing-it-forward.com and it will be along the line of a self-help website but with my twist added in there.
The rocks were removed from our back yard thanks to Jon. And we planted grass that has already had to be mowed twice.  It's beautiful but we still have some bald spots that I'm going to fix by getting another bag of grass.  I'm also going to get the crab grass killer and fix the grass in the front and in the back--then plant some nice grass there too.  I still haven't found a place in the yard worthy of a vege garden except the hill area--thats the only place that gets a fair amount of sun.  I have sprouts of tomatoes, brocolli, carrots and radishes and nowhere to put them.

Well I'm off to put a little time into my new website.

PS
I've still been dieting even though I don't bother with dieting on Sundays when we have our family dinners.  People are noticing my weight loss and commenting.  It's great.  I feel lots better too!

~~Show Faith, Always Dream, Share With Everyone, Hope hope HOPE and Love Ridiculously & Unselfishly and Be the Person you Dream and Hope to be remembered for~~

CHER

Friday May 11 2012

Cover of Curves

 It seems like it's been forever since I've sat down a posted here.  I've been moonlighting making my new website, www.sharing-it-forward.com. My initial goal was to move my wordpress dot com over to wordpress dot org paid blog.  Once I got started I decided to go ahead and make it a website and keep my free wordpress cause I already have 12 people following it and honestly don't feel like messing with it right now.
So, I'm starting to think of doing something else with the website.  I know I want to stay along the same theme.  It's gonna be about sharing info and deals but I want it to be a little more involved.  I remember going through this a few years back and ended up dropping the website. Well it's still there but I don't do anything with it.  It's free so I've just let it set there.  I don't wanna do that again. I'll come up with something.
Jayme's been having some issues.  She's got herself into a bit of a situation and isn't sure she wants to stay with Derick. Now she's all confused.  I feel for her, it's such a hard position to be in.  She will make the right decision.  She thinks about things with a level head. There will be more on this later I'm sure.  I just don't know what to put down here right now cause things are changing so quickly.
I went over and helped Wendy paint a little on the house on trails end ct today.  She's been trying to get it ready to rent and has alot of stuff to get done and wanted to make sure as much of the painting was done as possible since they will be laying carpet tomorrow.
I'm still thinking about the website.  Maybe I'm just not the writer I think I am.  I mean look at this post.  But when I let myself say these types of things then things turn out that way, bad.  I need to improve on my positive thinking.  Everything is so much easier then.  It's amazing how that works out.
Tomorrow is our first association meeting of the year.  It will be an early morning for a Saturday and then Sunday is Mother's Day. Busy weekend.

I forgot to tell you that I won the Curves monthly challenge! The challenge was to see who could lose the most amount of weight in a month.  It started right after I started there so I really think I had the upper hand.  I was motivated and had the initial water weight that came off too.  I lost 15lbs and I think 6 inches. 15 lbs in a month is great I think. I've been feeling lots better but I just started slacking off too.  I only made it to water aerobics and Curves twice this week.  I pledge to myself that next week I will show up at least 3 times! I also ate on family dinner night and moms birthday.  I think the birthdays are over for awhile so that's a good thing.  I just can't figure any other way other than to eat regular food on family dinner night.  It's kinda rude to bring my own sub and eat it. Ugh, I don't know.  The first family dinner night I was so good and had my protein shake in the morning, skipped my lunch cause we eat around 4 and then I ate a sensible amount but I went a little overboard at moms last Sunday with the goolosh and breads.  I felt funky for 3 days and therefore didn't work out or really eat right.  I was so afraid that I was gonna fall of the wagon.  But I did good today and it's all forward from here on out.  I can't let little things bring me down and just say shit to everything.
Well I'm off to see if I can get some fresh ideas from other site.

~~Show Faith, Always Dream, Share With Everyone, Hope hope HOPE and Love Ridiculously & Unselfishly and Be the Person you Dream and Hope to be remembered for~~

CHER

Dinner at Jayme's

 Today was a nice long Sunday. Me and Bill went to moms and Bill installed her new water faucet.  It didn't take long at all.  Then me and mom put the air compressor on Craigs list for $800. I hope she gets at least $700 for it! It's big and nice even though it's 12 years old.
Then we all went to Jayme's for dinner. She made beef and noodles, mashed potatoes, green beans, salad and bread. Wow it was alot of food and it was real good too.  She is turning into such a good cook.  The kids love that food.
Derick's family came over too and it was nice to meet them.  His mom, and both brothers Rick and Greg.  I forget his moms name, oh no.  I did pretty good remembering his brothers name.  They were all so nice too.  All the boys are so different.
The kids were at the top of their games, I played with them as much as I could. Alana is so silly.  She has Derick wrapped around her little finger.  She throws her little fit on the floor waiting for him to come pick her up.
We just got home and it's almost 8:30 now.  Already getting kinda tired...prob all those carbs! Going off to work on my other website www.sharingitforward.wordpress.com


~~Show Faith, Always Dream, Share With Everyone, Hope hope HOPE and Love Ridiculously & Unselfishly and Be the Person you Dream and Hope to be remembered for~~

CHER

My Little Birthday Party

It was a nice day having the family come over on my birthday.  Alana really digged the cake. Here are the pictures that I took.

so did Rylie
































































~~Show Faith, Always Dream, Share With Everyone, Hope hope HOPE and Love Ridiculously & Unselfishly and Be the Person you Dream and Hope to be remembered for~~

CHER

Been a Bad Girl!

Yesterday wasn't that nice of a day, ugh.  It was awesome outside but Zac and his sister have to keep putting their trash on FaceBook and I fell for it this time.  Tammy was "liking" some of the posts that were degrading to Jayme and all Hell broke loose.  I thought we had things worked out and Jayme got off of work and saw Tammy's original emails and lost it on her.  I hope they work it out because Jayme will feel bad and so will Tammy.  Nobody will win.  I'm ashamed of myself for the posts that I posted and removed them.  I've never stooped that low and posted crap like that on FaceBook...geez.  In my defense I was having some bad days, or pretty much the whole week because of dads birthday.  I feel like I'm losing my mind sometimes.
So, I went and worked out yesterday and actually am feeling better.  I was a hermit for about 3 day. I cried for a day or two, kept my face in some type of electronic gadget.  Usually working on some type of blog post and really getting nowhere.  Spinning my wheels.  I'm not using that as a crutch but it's the only thing that makes sense to me to do something that out of character for me.
To make matters worse I've joined an 8 week challenge through Alternate Economy and am suppost to be working on bettering myself and my attitude towards others.  I thought I was doing good but kinda fell off the wagon yesterday.  But I got a blog post about step 2 in the 8 week challenge and its' about compassion and the biggie with compassion is being able to forgive yourself.  I've always had a hard time with that...Always!  I don't know if everyone is like this but I'm much more likely to forgive someone else before I would myself.  I always say that once you have kids you're on a permanent guilt trip and ya that's true.  I can find a way to make everything my fault.
I'm going to make another post tonight or tomorrow about my 8 week challenge because I have to keep some type of journal for it so I can remember everything when I'm getting ready to write my essay and turn it in.  It will be published on their site so I want it to convey everything....and I have little Mr. Rylie hiding at the bottom of the stairs and he's suppost to be in bed....hmmmmm

~~Show Faith, Always Dream, Share With Everyone, Hope hope HOPE and Love Ridiculously & Unselfishly and Be the Person you Dream and Hope to be remembered for~~

CHER

Awesome news from Jayme

I just got some wonderful news from Jayme, her and Derick are getting married.  And that's not all...they are 99% sure that they're gonna have a baby in about 8 months! Yay, another grandbaby to spoil.  I'm excited about it.  She didn't think she would ever be married but they are in love.  She must know now how it feels to love someone so much that you feel like you want to share your life with them.  I know that Rylie and Alana love him too and he's real good with them.  She said that Derick is going to adopt Rylie and that's real exciting news too because I feel that Derick follows through with what he says he gonna do.  I think Jayme has made a pretty good decision.  He has motivation for the future and is really good to all of them.  Boy they are gonna have a full house soon.  We're hoping the baby will be dark haired!  Jayme may end up with a mini me after all!!  How exciting.  I did a little math and if she is about a month along which is usually the case when you start thinking you're preggo, then we should have a little bouncer in December again. Hmmm, I will have to start thinking about names again lol lol.  More on this later.
I've had Rylie since Thursday and he has been a pistol.  I don't know if we missed the terrible two's or what's going on but he has pushed every button that he could find.  Cryed everytime I laid him down...got into everything...didn't listen to anything and I mean anything.  I had to put in him timeout twice today and Bill did once.  He was in the timeout yesterday too.  I think he's double checking the boundaries here because of the changes in his home life.  Well, he got his answer.  Such a sweetie though too.  He hugs me and says I love you.  Gotta love that, it makes it all worth it.

~~Show Faith, Always Dream, Share With Everyone, Hope hope HOPE and Love Ridiculously & Unselfishly and Be the Person you Dream and Hope to be remembered for~~

CHER

Alana's first birthday

Jayme and Alana